separuh masa pertama

masa aku banyak terbazir dengan blogging. haha

aku terpaksa kurangkan atau tak menulis langsung bagi menumpukan perhatian kepada pelajaran aku. aku melabur byk dalam usaha aku ini, tak boleh buat main2.

maafkan aku bulan,
aku berlaku curang padamu.

aku sudah meniduri matahari tadi,
malam ini aku tak dapat bersamamu.

hingga jumpa lagi..

nafas melayu

amalan ni selalunya untuk tambah power. power apa? sapa amal sapa tau!

tongkat langit dengan lidah. tekan kuat-kuat.

sebut la ilahailallah dalam setiap hembusan

tarik nafas dalam kiraan 7, simpan dalam kiraan 5, hembus dalam kiraan 5.

dah power nanti, pepandai la korang kontrol sendiri.

duduk bersila diam-diam sampai rasa denyutan nadi, rilex sampai pikiran tak bayangkan apa-apa dah kecuali hitam.

sapa yang ada lelah tu, semput atau kurang stamina cuba lah amalkan.

rahsianya? rahsia lah~ hahaha

ACAB; fight for your right!

I am really sad last night
See the stupid in your head
Acting like a pussy
Killing all the guts you got
You don’t even fight when your enemy not satisfied
You think about disaster
But all you do is crying all night

Chorus

Hey you, where, your guts
Things won’t change if you keep on fighting all night
Hey you, where, your guts

Fight for your right

Repeat again

kelip-kelip dan lampu pelita minyak tanah

lokasi: kg pida 10, jalan sanglang, kedah
tarikh: satu hari, 1988

pukul 8, cengkerik terus menggesek sayap pada kakinya dan menghasilkan bunyi yang menjengkelkan. lagu itu membuatkan aku seram. mungkin atas rasa bersalah kerana mencabut kaki abangnya, si belalang agar tak boleh melompat lagi. belalang itu kemudiannya mati kerana darah hijaunya banyak keluar. hijau dan busuk. aku takut cengkerik ini akan balas dendam. kalaulah aku ada ridsect, akan aku bunuh semua cengkerik hingar ini.

masa untuk makan malam. lepas solat maghrib tok embun dan kaklong siapkan makan malam ringkas. setiap hari pun memang ringkas. ikan darat dan ulaman dari sekitar rumah. aku tak makan, bau lumpur pada ikan puyu itu masih kuat. aku hanya akan makan kalau ada ‘anak-anak’, hidangan yang bisa menghancurkan ekosistem ian haruan di sawah. mereka makan satu keluarga, aku hanya duduk ditepi bermain pelita minyak tanah. ruang tamu/ruang makan/dapur tak bermeja itu cuma diterangi satu lampu kalimantang hasil janaan generator petrol. sebelum tidur, generator itu harus dimatikan. dan semuanya kembali gelap dan sunyi- kecuali lagu seram cengkerik.

kawan-kawan aku dah pulang ke rumah. mereka perlu mengaji al-quran. aku yang sunyi seorang melayan lenggok api pelita minyak tanah. jelaganya melekat dibaju.

pagi tadi aku ikut melastik burung, malangnya burung takdak maka kami pergi lastik sarang kelawar di pokok pinang. kelawar itu tak melayan provokasi kami.

swimming pool bersaiz olimpik berselut menjadi tempat singgah aktiviti seterusnya. aku hanya mandi ditempat cetek kerana tak tahu berenang. sekali-sekali ada ikan datang mencium badan aku, sayangnya aku tak dapat sahkan itu ikan atau bukan kerana airnya yang keruh. mungkin labi-labi, mungkin ular air, mungkin juga loch ness.

seterusnya aktiviti menangkap ikan. sampai sekarang aku phobia nak seluk tangan masuk lubang dikaki bendang. pernah sekali rakanku seluk dan menjerit sambil berlari kerana dia terseluk lubang belut. nasib baik belut. aku sendiri pernah menukarkan aktiviti menahan ‘taut’ kepada pecut 200m setelah terserempak ular hitam. ikan-ikan yang diperolehi disimpan dalam ‘kork’ atau pembentung untuk juadah.

ketika hari semakin senja, sekumpulan budak-budak jahat ini terpaksa berpecah. aku sendiri ikut kaklong untuk ‘fetch’ lembu dari padang ragut. cahaya matahari lembut menyentuh petak bendang yang kosong. angin sepoi-sepoi memukul lembut muka muda aku. bertapa aku tak hargai masa itu.

tok mbun panggil, masa untuk tidor. kami tak tengok tv sebab kalau nak tengok tv kena naik motor sejauh 500meter dan lepak kat rumah kak ah. aku tak suka tengok tv kat rumah kak ah sebab mereka suka pasang tv satu untuk tengok drama melayu. orang kampung yang lain yang berkumpul kat situ pun suka tengok cerita tu. aku tak suka.

aku lebih rela baring disebelah tok mbun dan tok wan. botol berisi kelip-kelip yan aku tangkap senja tadi aku goncang. cuma keluar sedikit cahaya. kelip-kelip dah penat kot. mereka ni cuma cantik waktu malam, bila siang bentuknya hanya macam lalat atau kelkatu, menakutkan. tidorlah ye kelip-kelip. botol itu aku sandarkan kat dinding.

bantal kekabu bersarung kain kapas yang diberikan tok mbun aku peluk kuat-kuat. aromanya memberi satu ketenangan. bau bantal kekabu. mimpi-mimpi burung, mandi sungai, dan tangkap ikan menyusul kemudiannya. ditemani bunyi cengkerik dan lenggok api pelita minyak tanah.

(tadi rumah aku black out kejap, aku rasa begitu kosong. teringat pula masa di kampung dulu, hidup simple. aku memang tak hargai masa itu. al fatihah buat tok wan mat, tok mbun dan kak yon, keluarga angkat ku di kg pida 10. Ya Allah, mereka ini hambuMu yang baik)

denyutan hati malaya kian lemah

dalam koran harini, shuhaimi baba kesal dengan kurangnya sambutan terhadap filem yang dibikinnya dengan kos RM3.5 juta itu. filem hati malaya yang berputar tentang pengorbanan UMNO untuk memerdekakan malaysia itu dianggapnya dapat menimbulkan semula rasa cinta anak muda kepada UMNO. shumi yang mengharapkan sentuhan berhantu maya karin, gadis melayu celup untuk menarik anak melayu ke pawagam. setelah ditayangkan sebulan, hasil kutipan tiket hanya RM800,000 termasuk yang dibeli secara pukal oleh tauke2 pengampu parti pemerintah.

kenapa anak muda tak minat politik?

1. tak rasa kegiatan politik yang disertainya memberi nilai hasil yang tinggi berbanding kerja sosial yang lain.

2. merasakan semua parti politik itu sama saja. sapa menang pun takpa.

3. dia merasakan dirinya tak penting dan takkan dapat ubah apa yang berlaku.

4. tak percaya keputusan politik yang akan dibuat akan memuaskan hatinya

5. maklumat tentang isu semasa yang terhad.

6. kos penglibatan; eg kekangan pemerintah, duit nak makan pun tak cukup, inikan pula nak berjuang atau AUKU*

anak muda lebih senang jika tak ambil tahu.

*rujukan dari buku ‘modern political analysis’, Robert A Dahl

MIC vs HINDRAF (ada apa dengan mereka?)

berikut adalah email dari rakan mengenai perhimpunan HINDRAF. ini adalah untuk balance kan laporan media masa dacing yang berat sebelah itu.

MIC today urged Indian Malaysians not to attend a mass gathering, to be organised by the Hindu Rights Action Force (Hindraf) outside the British High Commission in Kuala Lumpur this weekend.

~Why we Indians should not attend the mass gathering organised by Hindraf?? Are you jealous that Hindraf have brought all the Indians together which MIC fail to do until today. Shame on you, never even attempt to bring all Indians together. Hindraf has proven that it is not difficult to bring all Malaysian Indian together and to be United as a big Family. We will do it baby.

The call was made by MIC secretary-general S Subramaniam and Youth chief S Vigneswaran at a press conference at the Parliament lobby.

~Where were this 2 guys when Hindraf and all the Indians gathered in-front of parliament to submit the memorandum earlier, why can’t they ask/beg the UMNO representative to come out and receive the memorandum??? They are talking now when others have achieved something that they fail to achieve after years and years. I don’t blame them. They never tried. All they did was busy polishing ……. – Again Shame on you.

In August, Hindraf filed a class-action suit against the British government for its alleged failure to protect the rights of the minority Indian community when it drafted the Constitution of Malaysia 50 years ago.

~This is very true. MIC should do this long time ago. But you chose not to care for Malaysian Indians. Now when others are trying – you try to stop them – Again Shame on You.

The suit stated that the British government’s failure had caused the Indians to remain a permanently colonialised community under the Malaysian government.

~This is very true, all the Malaysian Indian has confirmed this. Maybe you don’t know that all of us have confirmed this, sorry for not letting you know the latest news.

The gathering, which the organiser claims will bring together some 100,000 people, will also witness the submission of a petition to Queen Elizabeth II.

~Yes this will happen. What is wrong with this. We are doing it peacefully.
This is done according to Article 11 of the Federal Constitution which says – ” all citizens have the right to assemble peaceably and without arms”

The petition is to seek Her Majesty’s help to ensure that Hindraf obtains legal representation in the United Kingdom to enable it to present its case fairly in the British courts.

~Again – This is very true, all the Malaysian Indian has confirmed this. Maybe you don’t know that all of us have confirmed this, sorry for not letting you know the latest news.

Vigneswaran urged Indians to “think clearly before deciding” to attend the gathering, details of which are being circulated via the short messaging service (SMS).

~We were already been thinking and thinking and thinking for the past 50 years and we have decided to do it after giving a very very clear thinking OK. Anyway Thank You for your kind advise. I feel that you guys have to think clearly now. Things are going to change baby.

‘May cause unrest’

~”Unrest” is not new for us. It has always been the case for the last 50 years. Sit down and think, look at what is happening to our temples lately, look at the living style of Indians. Open your eyes man.

The MIC Youth chief said Hindraf was being “very irresponsible” by telling the public not to be concerned about the police or the need to obtain a permit.

~Hindraf never said not to be concerned about police. Don’t lie. You are misinterpreting the message. What was highlighted was the Brutality of the Malaysian Police force in handling Malaysian Indians and their (Authorities) power to cover it. There is nothing mentioned in the Federal Constitution that we need a police permit to assemble peaceably without arm. Maybe I forgot to read it.
You are trying to say that you are very responsible and concern about the Hindu community in M’sia or what. Pleaselah don’t joke.

“We are worried that the gathering may result in unrest. The public will become victims of this illegal gathering. So we hope that the people will reject all the negative suggestions and stick to the positive,” he said.
We were already a victim for the past 50 years from all the possible angles and you are talking about being victimised. Again shame on you.

~We are sticking to your advise in this – We have already rejected the negative suggestions and beginning from now – we will stick to the positive suggestions. Enough of being listening and obeying to the negative suggestions for the past 50 years. We are very very positive now.

“The British High Commission is closed on Sunday and Hindraf claims that they want to show the high commission that the Indians are united in fighting for their plight. It’s a lie. And their claim that each Indian will receive money should they win the case is also a lie,” he added.

~Yes, the British High commission is closed on that Sunday but the embassy will still be there and people all over the world will be witnessing the peaceful gathering. We (All the Malaysian Indian) are UNITED now and it is the effort of HINDRAF which has brought us together which you guys failed to do. If this is a lie then what is the truth – are you going to fight for the Indian rights in Malaysia??? we have lost the trust in you OK. Again – Shame on you.

According to Vigneswaran, the gathering is just a “disguise” to shore up support for the opposition.

~Actually you guys are the master of “disguise” who has been blocking the well-being of Malaysian Indians. We have already realised the truth. We would like to make it very clear that Hindraf is not a political Party. We have the right to vote for any party that we like OK. Hindraf never asked anyone to vote for any particular party. WE (Malaysian Indians) have opend our eyes now and we are also very very clear now to decide on our vote. If we like to vote for the opposition SO WHAT. It’s our rights OK.

“What is the point of the gathering? No other country can take action against Malaysia as it is a sovereign country. And as to their pledge to bring changes for the Indians, no one can bring changes other than the government,” he said.
The gathering is to show the Indian UNITY here in Malaysia. We are proud to show that HINDRAF has been successful in bringing all the Indians together with common vision which MIC failed to do. Let Us wait and see if other country can interfere in this matter or not. And the most important thing is why are you guys so scared and shivering and asking us to take a back and not to join the gathering if you are not worried of outside interference. Let the gathering go on if you are so sure. Yes there are already a lot of changes that have been brought to us(Malaysian Indian) by our great govt from bad to worst changes. e.g. Demolition of Hindu temples, condition of Tamil schools, Police brutality against Indians and etc……………
Clear vision needed

~This is for you guys, we are extra clear with our vision OK.

He also urged Indians not to forget the government’s contribution to the community in the past.

~What contribution are you talking about????? Again – Demolition of Hindu temples, condition of Tamil schools, Police brutality against Indians and etc…………… or what???

“We believe that problems can be solved using the existing platforms in our system. Where was Hindraf all this while? Just because the elections are around the corner, they try to raise issues now,” he added.

~If there is a platform in our system and it is effective then why it was not used until today to look at the problems that Malaysian Indians have and are going through. You failed – Again Shame on you – that is why Hindraf was formed quite sometime ago to help the Malaysian Indians. If they were there 50 years ago then the whole scenario could have been different and there will be no necessity for us to struggle like this. We have to struggle because the current party that is suppose to take care of our welfare failed tremendously to function with the platform in the existing system which is merely talking non-sense only. Elections got nothing to do with this but if you claim that, then what’s wrong. We (Malaysian Indians) feel that revealing of truth is better than hiding the truth (disguise) and leaving in fear for years and let others dictate our lifes.

Meanwhile, Subramaniam said the planned gathering is nothing more than an attempt to confuse the people and to garner support for the opposition.

~This man don’t know how to confuse the people which they were doing for the past 50 years. He is trying but won’t succeed because we have opened our eyes. Come on man come to the real World of Malaysian Indians we will try to open your eyes also.

“MIC is also concerned that it (the gathering) is (being) done in a very irresponsible manner. Hindraf is not thinking of the consequences. They can fuel things but not stop it,” he said, adding that he’s not sure who would stop the “avalanche” started by Hindraf.

~MIC is concern about the gathering and it’s consequences but not the welfare of the Malaysian Indians – Again Shame on You. The govt is the one who has fuelled things and now Hindraf is trying to stop it. The “avalanche” was started and accumulated over time and now it is being managed and handled in a peaceful manner. You are jealous or what.

On that note, Vigneswaran said the government is not against social activism but urged activists to be more responsible.

~OK sir, we will be more responsible, since the govt is not against social activism then keep quiet and watch OK.

“They need to have a clear vision and mission of what they plan to do. We’re worried that Hindraf lacks the vision,” he added.

~Hey Hey Hey, who lacks the vision, what is your vision and mission and have you achieved the basic element – Indian Unity in M’sia until today???? You failed in this -Again Shame on You. Hindraf has achieved that (UNITY of all M’sian Indian) in a short period of time because of the effective platform in their system. And you are talking about vision and Mission.

Sorry If I have hurt someones feeling but I think the red fonts will be my comments as well as a lot out there to counter the comments given by our MIC brothers.

Remember brothers and sisters, we are against violence and we have to think more than twice before we act on something. We should be patient and write as much as you like but not violence, release your anger through writing but not violence. Always keep our great lawyers in Mind and heart and their effort in this struggle.

Have a Good Day. Vanakam.

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dalam seram sejuk

disebalik halaman buku pallet dan eismin

dalam sibuk-sibuk

depan pisi

aku cuba gagahkan diri untuk teruskan projek baru…
yaaa…. ini projek baeeeeekkkk punya!!!

tungguw~

aduh HINDRAF, jangan lah begitu

ketika rakyat malaysia dan warga dunia sedang sedia untuk terima angin cosmopolitan, tindakan rakan-rakan dari HINDRAF bagaikan satu langkah ke belakang. maaf rakan, sebelah tanganku akan membantumu dan satu lagi terpaksa menahanmu.

aku takkan timbulkan apa-apa lagi perselisihan antara agama mahupun bangsa kerana kita dah ada UMNO dan BN untuk itu. aku tak pula akan menyerang balas HINDRAF atas apa desakan yang mereka buat, aku cuma ingin mengaku kesalahan aku, dan menunjukkan kesalahan kamu.

kaum india adalah kaum kelas kedua. mereka dianggap hina, miskin dan kaki todi. itu persepsi umum, walaupun individu itu adalah peminat shahrukh khan. ini pandangan yang cetek, salah dan sangat bahaya. hamba Tuhan takkan berpandangan seperti ini.

bila kita tengok balik kaum india di Malaysia, kita akan melihat kemelaratan, miskin dan sering bekerja sebagai kuli. sedang UMNO dan MCA ada universitinya sendiri, MIC hanya ada kolej. peluang untuk kaum india bangun adalah sikit.

kaum india mempunyai sejarah yang panjang. dalam buku sejarah melayu ada menyebut bagaimana kerajaan perak diserang oleh tentera dari india. ketamadunan mereka yang dibina atas satu tamadun yang lain, berlapis-lapis. malah pengetahuan mereka amat tinggi sehingga membantu ahli matematik muslim dari menyempurnakan sistem kira-kira (dari kanan ke kiri) dan sistem perpuluhan. mereka bangsa yang hebat sebenarnya. mereka tak patut dipandang bangsa kelas kedua.

ada yang berpendapat kaum india ini tidak berpelajaran, gengster dan belagak. soalnya, sempurnakah kita? elok sangatkan kita ni? apa dalam seikat sirih takkan tak ada yang di makan ulat?

setiap hamba Tuhan harus merendah diri dan menganggap insan yang lain sebagai insan yang ada keluarga, ada perasaan dan kehendak. mereka juga hamba Tuhan.

begitulah, perlu ada ruang untuk berbincang. harap HINDRAF dapat melihat semula pemintaan mereka agar rambut yang ditarik tak tumpah, rambutnya dapat. sesungguhnya kita ada musuh yang sama, Umno/BN. musuh kamu bukannya melayu/islam.

Allah lebih mengetahui

nota kecil; aku nak p tgk sivaji. aku dah dapat coy yang ada subtitle. daaahhh….

siapa yang kata DYMM YDP Agong tak suka rakyat berkumpul?

mamat ni kata;

Datuk Pengelola Bijaya Diraja Istana Negara,
Datuk Wan Mohd Safiain Wan Hasan, IC No: 461214035359,
is an UMNO member, membership No: 03728983,
from Cawangan Taman Desa Minang, Gombak Setia, Gombak.

RPK kata yag sepatutnya buat kenyataan media bagi pihak Istana ialah penyimpa mohor besar raja2, bukan mamat ni.

wajarkah ini berlaku? apa ke hey? apa ke hey? apa ke hey?

catatan pinggir

entri aku yang terakhir, merupakan hasil tulisan dibawah pengaruh ubat. entri yang sama hasilnya ialah entri mengenai cerita bapaku tentang harta karun yamashita, ketika itu aku mamai.

aku sakit sejak 2 hari lepas. demam dan pening, hasil gastik menghadam ikan siakap sweet sour dan strawberi + ice cream vanilla dalam jarak kurang 24 jam. haha!

hari jumaat lepas aku dan isteri ke teluk batik untuk makan ikan bakar dan end up menghabiskan RM84.00 untuk 4 orang makan. berikut adalah menunya;
ikan siakap sweet sour, sotong goreng tepung, udang kertas gred A bakar, sotong putih bakar, tom yam campur, kerang bakar dan kailan ikan masin. semua ini berjaya dihabiskan bersama ayu dan suaminya.

seterusnya hari sabtu, selepas exam ika di kampusnya, kami bergerak naik ke atas cameron highland, untuk membuang tebiat. (semua tebiat berjaya dibuang disana). kat atas tu, aku makan stimbot, seteroberi dengan aiskrim, dan ntah apa kejadah mak nenek lagik.

hari ahad, aku drive balik kl dalam keadaan pening. ditambah pula jam selepas slim river, ianya benar-benar mencabar kejantanan aku. nak muntah beb!

cerita di KL.

sesak! siyalan!
banyak lagi yang perlu aku cover utk lulus modul 11 ini. sepatutnya modul ini merangkumi sistem pesawat yang melibatkan enjin dan kerangka tapi kenapa banyak ditanya sistem radio, radar dan navigasi pula? arrggghhh!!! aku perlu stadi kembali semua ini! kenapa la aku tidor masa lecturer ajar dulu?

sesak!
aku perlu stadi. ya! sekarang! mungkin aku akan kurang menulis, kerana aku perlu stadi. ya! sekarang!